BAHHHHHH!!!

I know, I know, that title is somewhat scary and you are probably saying what the Heck?! Well, that is the only way to describe my life at the moment. In a high pitched, kind of frantic, yet excited beyond all belief scream. BAHHHH! Things are going sooo sooo sooo sooo sooo quick that I can't even keep everything striaght. BTW I am at work updating this because work seems to be my only down time at the moment. Ok so update in the life of me....

I officially have a job at Glenwood Regional Medical Center in West Monroe, LA. Exciting! YES! The HR lady had me fill out paperwork and handed me a health benefits packet and I was like what? What is this thing you call health insurance HAHA! This past Friday I suscessfully graduated from my clincal program...top in my class...and this next week will be filled with lots and lots of studying for literally hours on end because I will be sitting for my Board exams to get my Medical License at the end of the week! YESH! I am so nervous! However, I so cannot wait to have that white coat that says, Amanda LaBorde, MLS (ASCP)! Woop!

In pageant news, we are a clear 7 days away! Another AHHH!! This experience is going to come and go so quickly and I am so ready for it! I will be the next Miss Plus America Elite. So after my board exam, my weekend will be filled with volunteering at a local pageant and practing my walk until my feet fall off! I am so ready for this experience and the changes it is going to bring into my life. Even if I don't win, this will change me as a person and I CANNOT wait! I have my wardrobe all ready. I just need to pratice pratice practice.

This past weekend, I was priviledge to attend the Miss Louisiana Organization pageant. Congrats to Hope Anderson, Miss Spirit of Ruston, who is now Miss Louisiana 2011. She will go on to represent LA in the Miss America Pageant in January! Best of Luck! And I am so proud of all my girls who competed in this weekend though! Christiana Hayward, Becca Price, and Nicole Fairburn, you all truly did an amazing job and blew me away! You inspire me to do better and work harder because I know how hard each and every single one of you worked for this and you all are winners in my book! Thank you for supporting me in my dream and I hope that you don't give up on yours!

Okay, so I think that is it. I am almost fully moved to Monroe and living with the wonderful Mary Carlton! She is an amazing person and I am so excited to spend this time of our lives growing and learning just about life with each other! It is truly a God thing, so I know there is a good lesson for us to learn from each other from it! Keep coming back for more! I'll keep you up to date on all the pageant news!

Here and Now

I am living in the here and now. The future is always ever present and coming full force at me. Things consistenly are being dropped on my shoulders. Things go wrong, they go right, they make sense, they leave me confused. People are moving in and out of my life. Some are suppose to always be there and some just never belonged. Then there is that person who loves you and gives you everything and would change time after time for you and somehow it scares me that there is someone like that for me and it makes me uneasy because I am so young and even the thought of Love, give me the heebie jeebies. In 3 weeks, I will be graduating, moving to a new city, starting a new job, competing for a National title that is going to change my life regardless of if I win or not and thinking about anything else at the moment scares me. I am so young. I haven't even lived yet. Not. even. close. So I am at a stuck point. You make me happy. You put up with a lot. You are slowly falling in love with me. But I don't know if I can reciprocate that right now. I am still trying to find me. I am still making memories. I'm not ready for you. I'll do whatever it takes to make it right. I am living in the here and now and I don't know if there is room for you.