Today, Tomorrow, Forever

Tonight is my last night, here in this house. Here at this place that I call home. Tomorrow I become an adult that will drive to a new, unknown city and unpack HER truck into HER new apartment. I will have to make new friends, while staying in touch with the oldie, but the good ones. I will start a brand new job/internship that will determine if I chose the right path in life. If I followed the Lord's directions well enough. Tomorrow is a BIG day. And the more I think about it, the more excited, nervous, and scared I get. Sometimes I get a little panicky and start to have heart palpitations, but that's normal...Right? Growing up and being an adult and being responsible is the scariest thing. Maybe the only thing scarier is having kids. However, I am stuck on today. Today. Today I packed everything..again. Then I debated on what I should do about this boy that has been lingering in the last few posts. I wrote him a song...I recorded that song with my friend Taylor..I posted it on facebook. Then I was again reminded that he will still have no idea its for him or about him unless I tell him. Well Crap. I was trying to avoid this. That embarassing, sixth grade I like you do you like me drama feeling. Crap Crap Crap. So what do I do? I send him a message that says go watch this video of me and Tay..oh and btw I wrote that song for you. I never expected anything and I know you are old fashioned and I am not an Office quoter so this was the best I could do. Hope you enjoy it. Haha. Im laughing at myself. Maybe it is good that I am going to be about 500 miles away tomorrow when he finally gets that message and watches the video. Maybe being 500 miles away might be the worst thing too. In the end, I just want to say to him in the words of Taylor Swift, " I could give you fifty reasons why I should be the one you chose, all those other girls..well they're beauitful, but would they write, sing, and record a song for you.?"